Eli’s Videos: Since 2009

Just wanted to share the profile of videos I’ve been making.

I am really embarrassed about the ones I made earlier, but it shows you that video-making, like any other subject/area in life, gets better by intentionally challenging yourself to do better next time.

 

2009: When It All Started

I was originally interested in photography, but because I was so bored and such a loner during my first year of university, I made videos. I made videos for my class projects and I made videos for EHDS (something no one asked me to do). People around me reacted very well to it and recommended I major in Communication Arts (공연영상).

 

2010: When I Started Getting Into It

Because of all the positive comments in 2009, I signed up to study under Communication Arts. I was specially interested in documentaries.

 

2011: When I Started Getting Paid for It and Started Likin’ It More n’ More

This was the peak of my crazy video-making trajectory. I see now that I made the most videos during this year. It was the craziest year in terms of how much I was doing. To give you an idea, I had a nose-bleed every day for almost a year. This is the year I made my first and only official documentary about cultural identity.

 

2012: When I Became Afraid of Success

Basically, I thought I had lost my mojo and wasn’t very confident in making videos anymore (because I failed a Communication Arts class by not being able to make a documentary).

 

2013: When I Did My Best and Let God Do the Rest but Was Still Terrified

Since I graduated from college by this time and was getting started with “real life”, it was amazing to realize that people outside of Handong appreciated and wanted my videowork.

 

2014: When I Started to Believe My Work is Worth Something

It finally hit me that I was becoming a professional in this area. And realized I had been a bit falsely humble in how I saw my work. So I started to appreciate my own editing skills.

 

2015-present: When I Relized I Love This but Need to Put It in the Background (for the time being)

And now, as much as I would love to edit and edit and edit all kinds of videos, I feel like 2016 is a year when I won’t be making any official videos of any sort because I need to focus on my students.

 

Videos I made that are divided in categories (I am putting an * to the videos I personally like ^^):

EHDS-Related
2009 EHDS Recap Video
2009 EHDS Korea Outreach Video
2009 EHDS Left-Overs Video
2009 EHDS Promo Video
2010 EHDS Incheon Bus Accident Video
2011 EHDS Promo Video
2011 EHDS Staff FUN Night Video

 

HIC-Related
2010 HIC POIEMA Recruitment Video
2010 HIC POIEMA Chapel Attendance Video
2011 HIC Life Groups (with bloopers!) Video
2011 HGU Michael Card Promo Video
2012 HIC Life Groups Video
2012 HIC Children’s Ministry Promo Video
2012 HGU Michael Card II Promo Video
2011 WHC Christmas Video
2011 WHC CPC Offering Video

 

Class-Related
2009 Creation and Evolution Class – Sound Project
2010 Documentary Class Project: Intro of a Classmate
2010 Documentary Class Project: No Titles Allowed
2011 Documentary Class Project: No text, narration, nor sound (except for music)
*2011 Documentary Class Project: Welcome to My Life 
*2012 Motion Graphics Class Project – Write my name out in diverse ways
2012 Motion Graphics Class Project – Alternative Intro to Movie (I chose Little Miss Sunshine)

 

HGU-Related
2009 HGU Team Meeting Recap Video
2010 Yana Farewell Video
2012 DK & Euna’s Wedding Video
2014 Debi Birthday Video
*2011 HGU Faculty Retreat Opening Video – collaborated with Yana’s beautiful drawing skills

 

Argentina-Related
2010 Bariloche, Argentina Church Retreat Recap Video
*2010 Jina Onni & Bernabe Oppa Funny Wedding Video
*2011 Silly Commercial with Esther Onni – Slow Song Version
*2011 Silly Commercial with Esther Onni – Fast Song Version
2011 Argentina Vacations Recap (of 2010~2011)
2011 Argentina Sunday School Camp Recap Video
*2013 Linda Vista Apart Hotel Promo Video
2014 Oppa Birthday Video
2014 Juan y Ali Wedding Video

 

HIS-Related
*2014 HIS Promo Video – with collaboration of Aleksey
*2014 HIS Spirit Week Video
*2015 HIS 100km Walk Video
2015 Intercultural Engagement Class’ Visit to Russia Recap Video
*2015 Spanish 2 – Ocho Vasos Al Dia Music Video
2015 HIS Song Guitar Cover
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짝사랑

나와 아빠의 관계를 요약하자면 이것이다: 편한 사이지만 굳이 친하지 않은 친구 같은 관계.

그리고 나는 늘 이것에 대해 큰 불만을 갖고 살았다.

아빠는 나를 사랑한다고 한다.

하지만 아빠는 나를 잘 모른다.

그리고 나를 알기 위해 노력도 잘 안 한다.

내가 아빠한테, “아빠, 우리 지금 같이 시간 좀 보내요.”라고 했을 때 아빠는 “우리 조금 있으면 가족여행 가잖아~ 그거 열심히 준비 하고 있잖아.”라고 변명했다.

아빠 마음 깊숙이 보면, 아빠는 사실 나를 더 잘 아는 것에 대해 큰 부담을 느끼는 것 같다.

아빠는 나를 단순히 “예쁘고 착한 딸램”로만 생각하시고 싶은 것 같다.

진짜 엘리는 복잡하고 너무 깊은 생각을 많이 해서 더 부담스럽나 보다.

하지만 나도 누군가에게 이렇게 하고 있다는 것을 깨달았다.

나는 하나님을 사랑한다고 한다.

하지만 하나님을 잘 모른다.

그리고 하나님을 알기 위해 노력도 잘 안 한다.

하나님이 나한테, “엘리야, 오늘 하루를 같이 할까?”라고 하면 나는 “하나님, 나 조금 있으면 QT/단기선교/교회/성경공부 모임 할 거니까 그때 같이 시간 보내면 되잖아요!”라고 변명한 것이 한두 번이 아니다.

내 마음 깊숙이 보면, 나는 사실 하나님을 더 잘 아는 것에 대해 큰 부담을 느끼는 것 같다.

나는 하나님을 단순히 “나를 예뻐해 주고 내가 필요할 때 계시는 분”로만 생각하고 싶은 것 같다.

진짜 하나님은 거대하시고 위대하시고 나의 모든 존중을 받기 합당하신 분이셔서 부담스럽나 보다.

Epilogue:

하나님, 제 아빠의 대한 불만을 내려 놉니다.  아빠가 나를 알려고 시도 안 하는 것에 중심을 더 이상 안 둘 것입니다.  저는 victima가 아닌 mas que conquistadora입니다.

그리고 부담스럽지만 하나님을 더 알고 싶어요. 하나님의 마음을 아프게 해서 죄송합니다. 제 마음이 하나님의 마음과 합당하게 해주세요. 우리는 이미 아버지와 딸의 관계이고, 아버지께서는 나와 더욱 더 친해지고 싶다는 것들 깨달았어요. 하나님과 친해진다는 것은 예수님의 고통도 같이 짊어지고 이 세상에서 바보라고 불릴 각오를 하며 살아야 한다는 것을 압니다. 그래서 제가 부담스럽게 느끼는 것 같아요. 진실이 제 좁은 생각들을 깨트리게 해주세요; 진실이 나를 자유롭게 해주세요.

My relationship with my dad is basically this: we are comfortable with each other but we don’t really know each other well.

And for as long as I can remember, I always had a problem with this.

My dad says he loves me.

But he doesn’t really know me.

And he’s not really making an effort to get to know me.

When I told my dad, “Hey, let’s hang out together.” He said, “We are going on our family vacation soon!” (basically finding excuses to not be with me now)

Deep down, I think my dad is not comfortable with the idea of getting to know me better.

I think my dad wants me to remain as “nice and pretty Eli”.

Because the real Eli is a bit too complicated and thinks a bit too much. All of this might be too much for him.

But I realized I was doing the same thing to someone else.

I say I love God.

But I don’t really know God.

And I’m not really making an effort to get to know him.

When God tells me, “Hey, let’s hang out together.” I tell Him, “God, don’t you know that in a bit I will do my meditation/go on a mission trip/church/Bible study? We can hang out then!” (basically finding excuses to not be with Him now)

Deep down, I am not comfortable with the idea of getting to know God better.

I think I want God to remain as “The One who loves me and takes care of me when I need it”.

Because the real God is so majestic and awesome and worthy of all my attention and praise. All of this is too much for me.

Epilogue:

Lord, I lay down my discontent on my relationship with my dad. I won’t focus on how my dad is not trying to know me because I am not a victim; I am more than a conqueror in You.

And although I’m a bit scared, I want to know you more. Please transform my heart to be conformed to Yours. You and I are already on a Father/Daughter relationship, and You are always wanting me to know You better. I realize that knowing You better means taking up my cross daily and sharing in the sufferings of Christ, and that it means that the world will call me a fool. Perhaps this is why I haven’t been comfortable knowing You better. Please, let the Truth break through my wrong preconceptions, and let the Truth set me free.

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아부지께서 내가 10살 때 선물 해주신 곰인형. Teddy bear given to me by my dad when I was around 10.